02 November 2014

Frightening life.

2.11.2014 04:47 AM

Lately I've been trying hard to cope with all the stress. I'm not sure who can really listen to me when I told them " I'm stress " I've been telling almost 5 person but no one listen and understand. But that's doesn't mean I'm tryin to blame cuz human don't understand their own too. But just for one person, I wish she/he could appear right now & listen to my words, wiping my tears, give me a hug and lend me a shoulder. Being awake at 4 AM and no one to talk with is really hard. Scrolling down all the contact list, not sure whether that right person appeared or not yet.
Imagine waking up at late night and you're whole body are shaking becuz you're just too scare and tryin to be strong. All you can do is hiding under the blanket and your tears accompany you. 
At the same time, i'm wondering who is the person who read this blog right now after I drop my blog link at not so obvious place. I mean I appreciate you visits here even I may not know who is visiting 

16 October 2014

Lately thoughts.


Something pops out my mind suddenly. Oh ya I whisper to myself I've blog since form 3. Maybe I can write how I feels right now at here since there is no one I can rely on now.

Before that, I would like to thanks to you, yes you who are reading my blog right now. Hahaha I bet maybe at least there's someone who read my blog right? Talking about how I feels now, I couldn't explain how to but it's sort of feeling like i can giving up everything just for the sake of some rubbish things/peoples. Urghhhh everything is sucks. 


I can't stand human around me anymore. I don't know who to trust and I don't know who to listen to as everyone whisper with me different things everyday. At least I have someone, someone who i can really trust on and rely on. Yeah, it's myself




08 June 2013

Once in a lifetime




Something hits on me suddenly, log in to blogger and decided to recall all my memories here. Yes, people so-called scary shit and torturing camp ever in Malaysia. Suffer for 3 months and I'm one of them too. Teachers bet on us that we all 100% miss camp and they are true cause it happens on me, lol. Thanks to government placing me on this such amazing and the best camp ever, Ayer Keroh, Melaka. The first day when dad send me to Putrajaya, the heavy feeling and couldn't believe all these is happening on me and it changed after 3 weeks in camp. & in the camp also I started to have Malay friends, there are some very good and caring especially my roommates, they are all like my family.


Thanks to the one who always be there with me, washing clothes, bath, brushing teeth everyday.
Thanks to the one who always bought me dutch lady, wrote letter to me, accompany me talk about my problems.
Thanks to one who always standing beside the way to dorm every night just to wish me a goodnight.
Lastly, thanks to the one who secretly bought me food, I wonder who is the mysterious people.










 Even if I got a chance to join, I wouldn't because all I want is be with Siri 1 Kump 1 2013's pelatih only, they created happiness. MEMORIES.....

11 March 2012

I am back & Sook Yan's

 Back to the topic. I know I had already gone since 3 months ago. HAHAHA. My blog is dead. Seriously. And I can say that this is the 2012 1st post!! People thought I busy with study. What a joke. I don't even start a book yet. I thought my blog readers will gonna decrease too. What surprise me the most is, I saw my blog traffic feed ''30 mins ago'' or even ''1day ago''. Wow. There are still people who pay attention on my blog . Let's photo do the talk on last Friday!
Hair done by Jerin Sia. Lol. Half curl. I look more matured!! HAHAHA.

Spot me!! I'm in the middle. HAHA. Happy Birthday Beloved Sook Yan!! ♥ 

I'll change one day. Wait me.



29 December 2011

Last post of 2011

This gonna be the last post of year 2011. I can't believe that 2011 is gonna end. Please slap me!!!! I look back how's my 2011 life gone thru. Really appreciated that this year is really much better than 2010. I can feel the changes on myself.(what i'm trying to said that i'm getting matured.lmaoo)

January 2011
AHHHH!!This is the month that my form 4 life start, and every year in the beginning i will said 'this is a new year, i must study hard' but at last....

February 2011
The first thing that came into my mind when it reach February is his birthday.(you know i know.hehe)My both lovely parents's birthday is on this month too!! I started to love my school life this month cause I success transfer class with my three little girl and also my classmates. And this month is where I start to do something bad for the 2nd time with Echin & Jerin. Remember? I hope you two still remember. HAHAHAH.

March 2011
The 1st term exam start, I remember that I'm so satisfied with my result cause I get 2 A- . But it is getting worst after that cause it is getting harder. March were also the month when people start crazy about Big Bang and I'm one of them. HAHAHA.


April 2011
I don't remember much about this month, maybe it's because 1st term exam is over. So I'm so free until my class 4 Theta started to play chor dai di.(i'm addicted to that poker card game but it's okay as long as we won't take money and gamble)

May 2011
Life goes normally, nothing happen much on this month. Perhaps?

June 2011
2nd term exam is happening on this month, it's already half year of 2011. So my mind still thinking PLAY PLAY PLAY since this year is honeymoon. And..one little thing that I would not forget this month me and my babes join drawing poster competition & we won 2nd!! This is where 'Big Bang' slogan started by us. A little while we met, BIG BANG is the word when we said HELLO to each other :D

July 2011
I miss being at this day!! I remember this photo is on July because it was someone's birthday. This pose represent : Big Bang. HAHAHAH. Why I was so noob, only my hand failed in doing that thing. T__T

August 2011
It is August!!! It's Echin & my month and we turn to 16 years old girl. YAYYYYYY. I don't feel like celebrate my birthday this month, and I never thought that I still got the chance to blow candle. HEHEHE. I knew someone here too. This someone make me feel like I'm the most stupid girl in the world until I lost someone I love for years. Thanks bitch!

September 2011
Busy-ing preparing for the last final exam!!

October 2011
After whole month torture by exam. I finally finish my exam and my form 4 life ended at this month too. I will never forget that this month is the month that I've to break up with him. I'm single after 3 years with him. Some people don't even know how to shut up their mouth and busy about talking me and his problem. Life started to changed here......

November 2011
It's like finally November, and my single life is good. Sometimes I even forget myself is single now. One month without him, I admit I miss him. ;)

December 2011
Wow. Back to December. 2011 pass very fast just like how fast I wrote my blog here. I went to camp with my churches & I learn something new too. Maybe this part doesn't like me, but I really thank God for my 2011 life. I even smiling writing this post right now. I'm really thankful for following Jesus's way since I was small. 2012, I believe God will have another good plan for me. This is how my 2011 gone through, what about yours?

Thanks for the people who make me growing matured this year. I learn alot.

07 November 2011

Lost world of Tambun!

Was actually went to Gua Tempurung yesterday morning. But Malay are having their Hari Raya Haji. Guess there's no one who will guide us to Gua Tempurung. Miss the chance ;-( Without planning, we went to Lost World of Tambun Ipoh. Boring place & kids playing. Little bit photo I took with Lumix DMC-TS1. Waterproof camera but mummy already warned me not to let the camera swim inside the water for safety. Orange color camera. LMAO :-/
I called this number 8. and this remind me the scary slide -.-
One word : I'm not going here anymore. So boring & so no fun ;-/ Don't get wrong. I don't wear white shirt play water. The self shot photo is after I done playing ;-)
Cross? This must be Christian ;-)
Retarded look. Forgive me. Thats all for this posts. Less photo and talk crap.

23 October 2011

Happy Birthday Nicole!

Delay this post almost 1 week! I am so sorry guys! I just get some of the photos from them. Can't believe time past so fast. Nicole birthday already past by one wink of eyes. Celebrate her sweet 16 birthday at IOI RED BOX after we finish our exam. I don't have anything to write much. Perhaps, you can just look some photos of the day! Suppose to upload 'hundred' photos here, but I choose some only!
Jerin & Cece. The 1st time I met babe Cece. We both are so excited and happy ;)
ZhenYe Salvatore. The one I always argue with. LOL.
Lastly, the birthday Girl ;)